When The Lights Went Out
There was that old show on Spike, A Thousand Ways To Die, and I thought I was going to die on the toilet because that's when the lights went out.
It was like any other Sunday. Worked on Uncharted, meal prepped, and went hiking during the day. Went to bed without worry. Woke up rather early and was very awake as soon as I opened my eyes, which is rather unusual, and started getting weird chest pains. Thought they would go away but they didn't. After trying to wait it out for a few minutes, I headed to the bathroom and sat down on the toilet and that's when it all came crashing down.
First nausea, then dizziness, lightheadedness, cold sweats. I was trying to breathe my way out of the situation but it wasn't happening. I called to Alina for help and a few moments later the lights started to go out. Anxiety hit. Thinking of recent events with friends' young family member and colleagues health situation, I feared the worst. Within a matter of moments I was out.
I came to after what I found out later was about 20 seconds. I ended up folding over and knocking my head on the lip of my shower. With more of Alina's help, we got dressed and headed to the nearby Emergency Room. I had a lower pulse than usual, mid 30s, but after a few hours and all the tests, everything came back negative. Blood work was immaculate. EKG and X-Ray looked good.
I consider myself a relatively healthy individual. Don't drink or smoke. Train on a regular basis. Eat healthy but I'm partial to dark chocolate. I thought I was done with my share of ER visits. How could this be happening to me (again)? This was the worst feeling that I've ever experienced. Scared and helpless don't go well together.
It took me a few days to come back to relatively normal and as one should, reflect. This might sound like an oxymoron – stop wasting time but take your time. I've written about this already but with a new dose of the unexpected, it's a good time to reiterate.
The majority of our waking hours can be consumed by things, ideas and emotions that don't really matter, if we chose to be consumed by them. But what does matter? That's really up to you. A few simple "rules" I'm trying to focus on are the following. Does it make me happy? Will it make me happy in the future? Does it make others happy? Is there a value to me and to others? Am I harming anyone? You might ask, what is happiness? Again, I can't answer that for you. What I can suggest is to take inventory and stop wasting your time with things, ideas, and emotions that don't provide you with the answer you're looking for. Instead, spend your time on those that do. Yes, there are times that there is no alternative and you have to confront these things. In those moments, take a pause and choose your response.
Quick example. A good friend of mine was recently kind enough to point out that even though I'm laid back most of the time, I can quickly become angry. This does nothing to resolve matters, makes others feel like they are being attacked, and it certainly doesn't help me. That's my Achilles heel. An emotion that can quickly consume me that benefits no one.
Stop waiting for change. Stop waiting for something to happen. Take in all that makes you smile 🙂
"Catch me outside",
Co-Creator, Uncharted Performance
Olympic Weightlifting Aficionado